Thursday, April 29, 2010

work through the pain

all i can do is laugh. i dont know what THE answer is but i know a few answers. i dont act on them like i should. lazy is my way. why you ask? because i'm in no danger nor do i have the drive. i lost it or maybe i never had it. i could just be beating myself up about it. i neeed to do more than just laugh it out.


Saturday, April 24, 2010

Slow No Saturday Day

Wasted the day and I'm about to waste the night. Boring short week. Had a few laughs. Almost had a cry but I wasn't really upset by it. Don't know why. Don't know if she got the message or not. Not sure if I really care. But there is no other. And that doesn't scare me but I always feel like I'm behind the curve. Maybe I am. I do come around eventually. In my own time as they say. So am I depressed about it? Nah. Mostly blah about it. Don't know what my next move is. Well other than stop eating all of the bullshit I eat and workout a little. And of course DRAW MORE!